1/6/09

Haha okay so first off, I just want to say…
I should never EVER become a graphic designer. :DD
I tried tampering with the colors of my blog.. oof.. haha actually it wasn’t that bad I guess. Maybe I’m a drama queen. o w o
Anyway, so I decided that I’d just trust the templates. (:

Uhh so this is my first post since like .. early December? (Yippee, my 1st post of 2009!)
Lol it reminds me of my old Xanga that I never went on. But I’ll try to keep this updated. :O

I feel like I’m chatting because of all the hahas and lols. > w >;; But that’s only because I was never good at writing cool, deep stuff. My train of thought doesn’t really have a course. = w = It’s kind of like a train trying to go through the ocean or the forest… basically, I’m saying that it’s IMPOSSIBLE for me to write something poignant or eloquent or even about just one subject.

Since this is my 1st post of 2009, I guess I’ll write my New Year’s Resolutions (though it’s a little late)
1) Be happier. (Try not to complain and think negatively)
2) Try to make my friends feel good, not bad. Try to avoid conflicts, if it’s possible. :D
3) Work harder… don’t be a sloth…
4) Be a better person in general!!

I guess lately I’ve been just “eh” about life and kind of acting like a pessimist. Or some emo kid who doesn’t really appreciate all the great blessings they’ve received in life, which isn’t cool. D: I kind of felt like I want to stay happy and bright all the time, but for me, it’s kind of… impossible. Like I’m just not one of those people with smiles that always stay on their face. (almost like they’re painted on… :D haha jk) But today, I kept getting reminded that everyone has to try to stay happy. Right? I think that it’s your attitude, which only you control. And some people just have that because that’s what they’ve developed and practiced all those years. Hm. Anyway, so I kept seeing stuff about happiness.. like in CC’s blog and Annes’s status: Happiness is Always Near (a great david choi song :D) and realized that I should just suck up stuff. Lol what do I honestly ever have to complain about?
haha I’m such a little kid…

Maybe one of my resolutions should be to grow up?
I’m kind of kidding myself when I say I’m pretty mature. Because man do I have a loooong way to go (: But I’ll keep trying!

Hm… I just wasted so much time on the computer. Doing what I wonder..= w =;;; haha pretty much nothing but catching up on old blogs :O

Anyhow, I’ll try my hardest to become a better student and a better person. Someone who is understanding and avoids unnecessary conflict. Someone who thinks before they act, instead of doing stuff then regretting it, like me. (which is being considerate too) Someone who is honest and is a hard worker. Someone nice. Someone… who can cook because I’m hungry.

I should probably add better girlfriend in there. Because I really suck at that.. o w o;

Anyhow, sorry for ranting! Peace out my amigos!!


p.s. hooray if you read this all! you are a genius & a very patient person! :O
with good concentration. and good understanding if you got it. o wo